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She came to the door, arms laden with bags. “I have just a few more things in the car,” I heard her say as she turned and left. “I’ll be right back!” The children and I looked at each other wondering what this treasured friend was up to this time…
Returning, a little out of breath, like Mary Poppins, she began to pull things out of her abundant bags. “I was at the store,” she began, “and it occurred to me the kids might like some grilled cheese sandwiches. As I was picking up the cheese and bread, I felt the Lord directing me to meat and cheese instead. I really thought grilled cheese sounded better, but He kept prodding me to get meat and cheese. So, I just decided to get both… I know you make your own bread, but I bought some anyway, just for fun.”
As quickly as she had come, she was gone.
Her words slowing sifting through my mind…
“I felt the Lord directing me to get meat and cheese instead.”
How could she have known? She didn’t know. Only God knew…
The children stood looking at me. Did they remember their own conversation just yesterday, I wondered. Did they recall in their minds how they had dreamily spoke of meat and cheese sandwiches as they reluctantly ate peanut butter and jelly, again?
We ate our lunch with thankfulness and awe of our great and loving God.
That day left a permanent impression in my mind.
Not only does our Heavenly Father care about even the smallest of details in our lives, He speaks to us! He is there to lead and direct our steps, if we are willing to listen.
Watching these tiny little birds on our porch, I wondered what it must be like for them when they take their first flight.
I’m not sure why, but these last few days I have doubted my abilities in just about every area of my life. I have honestly felt like there is someone shouting in my mind, “Who do you think you are? You certainly aren’t a writer, why would anyone want to read what you have to say?… Start running again? ha, ha. You couldn’t do that. You’ve let too much time go by, besides that, your too old!… There is absolutely no way you are going to find time to home school this year. You simply have too many kettles in the fire!… Give up! Give up! Give up!”
Even though I know better than to listen to these self destructive thoughts, I admit they got my attention. I was listening to them and even beginning to believe them. In fact I was tempted to change my course in a few areas.
Not being the first time this has happened to me, I knew the first step I needed was to seek God and listen to Him for clarity in my mind. As the condemning comments continued, I chose to read and reread the scripture verses I have been focusing on. ( For more on learning to listen to God, click here.)
“Therefore, do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need for endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised.” Hebrews 10:35-36 (NASB)
“But my righteous one shall live by faith; and if he shrinks back, My soul takes no delight in him.” Hebrews 10:38 (NASB)
Yesterday I came across an article that my good friend, Shara, wrote called, Marathon Training and Homeschooling. No, I’m not interested in marathon training, but the principles were exactly what I needed to hear!
“Whenever it comes up that I’ve run 2 half-marathons (not that this comes up much…HA!), the response I get from people who don’t run is, “I could never do that!!
I am here to tell you…you can!! Unless there is some REAL medical condition keeping people from running, a vast majority of the people who tell me they “never could”, in fact, very much could. They maybe couldn’t today, I couldn’t today:). But they could in 6 months (and usually much sooner). You start one step at a time and train. I started with a novice schedule. It assumed I could run 2 miles. If you can’t yet run 2 miles start with running one block. Then 2 tomorrow. You can, it just takes persistence and time.”
Shara’s, article isn’t just about running or homeschooling, it is about life! It reminded me that I need to trust God and act on what I know to be true.
Another woman I know has a blog she has kept up for many years called i am baker. Last night as I looked over some of her posts, I noticed how she declared who she was in her titles: i am baker, i am mommy, i am author, i am servant.
This morning, as I woke to the same lousy voice in my head, I remembered the declarations of i am baker. I chose to declare who I am, not who I’m not.
So, those are all good points, but it wasn’t until I physically acted on my beliefs, that I started to regain my confidence.
“For by Thee I can run upon a troop; and by my God I can leap over a wall.” (Psalm 18:29)
FYI: I conquered 2 miles early this morning! :)
Special thanks to my dear husband that always, always, always supports and loves me!
This morning we decided to beat the heat of the day and get a early handle on dinner. In one hour we made 50 freshly ground whole wheat tortillas.
Fresh wheat berries before they are ground.
I use a NutriMill to grind the wheat. You could simply buy whole wheat flour instead, but it does lose much of its nutritional content when it is pre-ground. With the dough hook attachment, the Bosch mixes all of the ingredients together. Or, you could do it the old fashioned way, by hand.
Separate the dough into little balls. Let sit covered with plastic wrap for a half hour or so before rolling into flat tortillas.
Cook on a dry griddle, medium heat for about 1-2 minutes per side. Stack on a plate as they come off the griddle and keep warm in foil.
True, they are a bit more work than the store bought version but worth the extra effort.
Tonight’s menu: Grilled chicken with shredded veggies from our garden, wrapped in our homemade tortillas, ranch fries, and lightly sweetened ice tea.
Whole Wheat Tortillas
3 cups whole wheat flour
1 tsp salt
1/3 cup canola oil
1 cup warm water
This batch makes about 10 tortillas. I usually multiply it by 5 for our family.
Enjoy your dinner!
Camping on Madeline Island, picnics with Grandma, Grandpa, Aunts, Uncles and cousins, sunny afternoons at the beach… I am thankful Momma and Daddy planned fun traditions for our young summers days.
It doesn’t have to be expensive or take all day to create fun memories. We happened to notice that Baskin Robbins has $1.00 kids cones on Tuesday nights. Since they are only about 5 minutes from our house, we have become summer time regulars.
I would love to hear from you – What are some of the favorite simple summer pleasures your family enjoys?